There is a huge difference between physical body and spirits. They are two separate things, and they are not necessarily the same. Take otherkin for example, they are human in body…but something else in spirit. You may or may not believe on otherkin…but I want you to believe that the soul exists. And if you want a proof…well…you have to look at yourself. I cannot place a mirror in front of you, and say: “Look…that is your soul”, you have to find it on your own.

But now I want to tell you a story…I am not asking you to believe me, but I want you to understand what the story means, and what I want you to see….and feel. So now, sit down, and prepare yourself…this story…may change your life.

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Three years ago, my life was ordinary. I spent my days doing what a normal human being does: work, sleep, eat, talk with friends, and stay with the family…it was definitely an ordinary life.

But I knew that there was something different in me. Often at night…I imagined myself as a dragon…yes…a dragon. A powerful mythological beast, which soared the skies…free from logic, free from the boredom of the daily life…free.

But I knew that they were just dreams, and even if I dreamed to be a dragon, I knew very well that it was just a dream…a fantasy…nothing more. But with the slow march of time…I felt different; I felt something in the deepest part of my mind, which was struggling to get free, and tell me finally: I am here.

This presence scared me more every day, and at the end, I was scared even of my own shadow. Afraid to become insane, I decided to see a psychologist. I told him about my dreams, and this presence that lied in my mind. He simply said that it was just my subconscious, it was just imagination. He said that I just had to talk with people, try to be happy with myself, and everything was going to be all right.

I decided to follow the instructions, and I tried to stay with my friends as much as I could. It seemed to work for a few months, but then the presence came back. At the end, I decided to talk with my friends about the ghost in my mind. That day, I received the help I needed.

My best friend Mike gave me the hint:

“Listen Alex, I think you should see this group…called the otherkin”

“Tell me about them”

“They are people who have presence in their mind…just like you. But they called them souls”

“My soul is driving me crazy?”

“Not exactly…it’s the fact that you’re not accepting it that is destroying you. I think you should go and see them…you will surely find the solution to your problem”

“I tried everything…I guess this will be my last hope”

And it was; I had no other options in that moment. But that was definitely the best decision I have ever made.

………

Mike told me that the otherkin had a website, where I could contact them. So I browsed the website, and I looked or a dragon otherkin that lived nearby. I found an otherkin with the nickname: BlackDragon112. He lived in the same city; I guess that I have been lucky. I wrote him an email, explaining him my problem. I felt a little strange while sending him the email…I was asking for help to a man that I did not even know.

He replied two days later, telling me the place where he lived. He surely trusted me; no one gives you his address like that. He lived in another district of the city, but it was just twenty minutes from there; I decided to go and meet him immediately.

So I left the apartment, and I took my car. I reached the place after almost exactly twenty minutes…sweet. I left my car, and I walked toward the house where BlackDragon112 lived. It was a regular house…white in color, and relatively small, I doubted that a dragon lived in that house. I knocked at the door, and after a while, a young man opened the door. He smiled at me, and he said:

“You must be the one who sent me the email…come inside, and feel yourself at home”

“Thanks mister…”

“Oh…you can call me Justin”

“Alex…nice to meet you”

I shook his hand, and I walked inside. He had definitely a very particular style of furniture…gothic style I guess. And on the walls, there were paintings of various dragons; that man surely loved them…but that did not prove if he was one of them.

“I see you’re looking at my dragon paintings…I made them myself”

“They are great…I wish I can draw like this”

“Oh…if you are a dragon like me…I guess that you will draw even better”

“…yeah…”

He smiled at me again.

“You look a little unsure…that’s not a good thing, if you want to solve your…problem…you have to trust yourself”

“I trust myself”

“But you don’t trust me, right?”

I did not want to offend him, but I nodded anyway.

“I knew it…it’s not easy to understand…and it’s even harder to accept it. So…I want you to understand, and then I can show you”

Justin was a nice person, but somehow I feared him. Maybe it was his strange house, or his obsession with dragons, but still…I could feel something wrong with him. He seemed to read my mind, because he said:

“I feel your indecisions, you fears…but don’t worry…you will understand. And when that will happen…you will trust me, and more importantly…you will trust yourself”

He sat down on a couch, and I did the same.

“Now mister Alex…the dragon spirit inside you is not just your imagination, it’s real, and you must accept it…don’t deny it”

“How can I accept it? He scares me; I fear that he will do something bad to me”

“Oh…he will not, you think that he is an enemy. He is not an enemy…is part of you…he is you”

“Whatever…now tell me how can I end my sufferance”

He stood up; he seemed to lose his patience.

“Patience…do you think I am an exorcist? I want to help you to help yourself…that’s all”

I stood up too; I had something to tell him.

“Listen…I don’t want to lose my time if you can’t help me. If you are really a dragon…show me, give me proof that what you’re saying is true”

He looked at me angrily.

“Very well then…but you will regret it”

He stepped back, and suddenly is body started to glow. In a few seconds, scales growth all over his body, two wings erupted from his back, a tail growth, his face became a draconic muzzle, and his feet and hands became claws. At the end, I was standing in front of a real breathing anthropomorphic dragon.

“I hope you’re happy now”

He said, with a hissing voice…similar to the one he had as a human. I could not believe what I was looking at….a dragon…my nightmares became true.

Suddenly I heard a voice in my mind, it was shouting at me: “I told you so!”

I could not take anymore…I fainted.

………

I slowly left the dream world, and I opened my eyes. Justin was standing in front of me; is face did not show any emotions. I stood up, trying to resist the weakness. I looked at him, and I said:

“I’m sorry…”

He smiled again.

“Don’t worry…you’re not the firs one who fainted after seeing me in my true form”

“So…you helped other people?”

“A lot of people…more than you can imagine. Maybe it’s because I’m one of the best, the guide for those who want to wake up”

“Wake up?”

“The awakening is the final stage of the process…where we became what we truly are for the first time. I want to lead you to your awakening”

“But…I’m not ready to become…what you are”

“No…you’re not ready to become what YOU are, to face your spirit and your real being. If you are not…ready…then you can go away, and live your whole life in the darkness. Or you can stay with me for a while, and discover the truth about yourself…that’s up to you”

I was not ready; however…did I have choice? Did I ever have a choice?

………

Twenty minutes later, we were sitting in a small room. There was no furniture, just a small carpet. We sat down on it, and Justin started explaining:

“The first step is to search inside your mind for the spirit, then you will have to accept it inside your body, and then…you will wake up”

“It doesn’t look that simple”

“It isn’t, but you have to try at least. By the way, no one managed to find his soul the first time…we will try until you will succeed”

I just wanted everything to end quickly…I wanted to find that spirit immediately. So I close my eyes, and I concentrated. Several minutes passed, and nothing was happening. After a while, Justin said:

“You’re not doing it correctly…can you tell me why?”

“I’m not concentrating enough?”

“No…you’re concentrating too much. You have to relax, and feel your emotions…not try to force them. Try again, and this time…more relaxed. Meanwhile…I will take something that will help you”

I closed my eyes again while Justin left the room. I tried to relax, but I was confused and scared, I could not calm down and relax. Suddenly, I smelt something; I opened my eyes, and I saw Justin with some strange candles.

“This will help, now relax, and go on”

I close my eyes again. The soft aroma of the candles made me feel…good, and my body was starting to relax, and so my mind. After a while, I was in complete peace with the world, and I could not be happier. But suddenly, I felt my body levitate, and I opened my eyes….scared.

“Why did you stop…you were succeeding”

I noticed that he changed back into his dragon form.

“Justin…can you…”

“If you want me to transform back…well…no. You have to accept dragons as a reality now…because you are one. Now close your eyes, and try again”

I tried again to relax, and just like the last time…I felt in peace. Then my body started to levitate, but this time I tried my best to stay focused. I lost my feelings, and I flew in a strange blank space. I noticed that I could not open my eyes, or move any part of my body…I was trapped in my mind. I stayed focused…I wanted everything to end, and that was what I was going to do.

I felt a presence around me…it was the dragon spirit. He spoke to me, but unlike the other times, his voice was soft and gentle.

“You have come…finally…I waited so long”

“Listen…I want you to…”

“I know…you want to stop this sufferance…but if you want your sufferance to end…you must accept me”

“Yes…I accept you”

“…it’s not that easy, you don’t want to accept…your subconscious is resisting”

“What can I do? I need to accept you”

“I know…just…follow your heart, unlock it, and you will finally be able to accept me”

I did not know what to do…his words were senseless. How could I unlock my heart?

I felt something pulling me away from the realm of my mind, and I came back to the hearth. I opened my eyes; I was sweating, and panting heavily.

“I guess that’s enough…you need to rest”

Justin said, transforming back to human form.

“Justin…how can I…unlock my heart?”

He looked at me, and he sighed.

“You must…trust me…and trust yourself…then your heart will be unlocked”

“But…I thought that I already started trusting myself when I talked with the spirit”

“Don’t be ridiculous…you just managed to reach the deepest part of your mind, that doesn’t mean that you immediately learnt to trust your feelings”

“But…how…”

“I can explain this to you now…now rest…and don’t try to do that alone…you can even loose yourself if you are not strong enough”

I decided to trust him, and take some rest. I was walking toward the door, when he said:

“You can sleep here tonight…there is a bed in the guest room”

“Oh…I guess that…”

“Come one…you must trust people right? That’s a good way to start, now go to bed”

I looked out of the window…it was dark outside. I realized that I spent hours in my mind, which is why I was so tired. I walked in the room Justin showed me, and I jumped on the bed, with my clothes.

“Well…good night Alex”

………

In the dream world, the dragon spirit appeared to me.

“So…how are you?”

“Fine…I’m trying to…unlock my heart”

“Not an easy task, right?”

“Not even a little…”

“…why you don’t trust people?”

“Well…I hear everyday about terrorist attacks…murderer…thieves…humans are not trustworthy anymore”

“Is that so? You lost hope in people?”

“Well…not everyone is evil but…”

“And that’s what you must understand, not everyone is evil…there are some evil man, but you must understand that we are all human beings…good and evil exists…and they will exist forever. However, just because humans are not all good…that does not mean that we cannot trust them. They deserve trust…everyone deserve it, because there is light in this world, and we must fight for it”

His words could not surely convince the whole world, but they surely convinced me. I started to see things differently…the world looked brighter…even in my dreams; it was like waking up, after a thousand years of sleep.

“You are ready to accept me now…go in peace Alex”

I felt the dragon spirit spinning around me, and then…he fused with my body…no more two separate entities…but just one body…one soul…one living being. Then…I woke up.

………

I stood up; I did not feel tired anymore…I never felt better. The dragon soul inside me wanted me to reveal it…to fully wake up…finally, after years. I released the feeling I have so long kept inside me, and finally…I could become what I truly was. My body started glowing, and just like Justin, it transformed…giving me the form of a great golden dragon. That was it…my true form…my true being…my true life.

“Alex I heard you…what the hell?”

Justin walked in the room, in his dragon form, and he looked at me with a surprised expression.

“Alex…you managed to wake up in just a day…I never thought someone was going to succeed in such a short time”

“Well…seems like you didn’t…trusted me when I told you that I didn’t want to loose my time”

Justin looked at me, a blank expression. Then we both started laughing…we were both happy.

………

“So…let me know what you are doing these days”

“Of course…I always try to see my friends when I can…but these days I have a lot of work to do…you know…when I was…depressed…”

“I understand Alex…I understand…”

We shook our hands one last time, and then I walked toward my car. I was going to start the engine, and drive away, but Justin stopped me, and he asked:

“You didn’t tell me what unlocked your heart”

I looked at him, smiling.

“Who knows?”

He smiled too; and then he walked away.

“I never thanked you”

I told him while he was walking away. He turned around, and he said:

“And you will never have to”

I smiled, and I started the car. I drove away…toward my future…toward the life…toward the world.

………

That is my story, and remember my friends…there is light in this world…we must fight for it…for a brighter future…a future of trust…and friendship.

Goodbye

Your: Alex the dragon


THE END